The only thing I can chalk up my latest goal/what-I-want-to-do is that I must be suffering from a mid-life crisis.
You see I am a month shy of 46 years, peri-menopausal and wondering if this aging thing is really for me.
Actually scratch that last sentence – I know this aging thing isn’t for me. I don’t like it and I don’t want to encourage it in any sort of way. I know I am going to age but…I am not going down without a fight.
How You View Your Mid-Life
Experts say the answer of how we will enter our mid-life will depend in part in how we have viewed our life so far and how we view it for the future.
There are those who will feel less conflicted about their age because when they reflect back at their past years it’s with affection and they are able to happily move forward to the next years.
While others will wonder, “Is this it?”, and instead of looking back on their years fondly they, instead, only focus on the diminishing years ahead.
They see the time-bomb ticking and think to themselves “Sh*t.”.
This is where the mid-life crisis begins. When these poor buggers believe that if they do something drastic and shake things up in their life that it will either A) distract them from the fact that time is ticking away, or B) by getting their butts in gear they won’t miss out on any goal or grand plan that life had for them.
A mid-life crisis is really the original FOMO.
And, I am one of those poor buggers suffering from both A and B.
Mid-Life Crisis To-Do List
My mid-life crisis to-do list is a bit long (visit Europe, learn a new language, write a book), but there has been one goal that has been in the back of my mind for a while and two weeks ago I finally bucked up and owned it.
I decided this was the year I was going to compete in a fitness competition, in particular the NPAA BC Classic (Natural Physique Athletic Association) happening this May 1st in Richmond.
What will I be competing in? Bikini Masters (for women 35 years and older), and if I have the courage Bikini Novice as well (this is where I would be competing with women as young as 20 – not sure I want to be on the stage twice). Gulp.
I Got To Wear What?!?
First things first, I am not a bathing-suit-strutting kind of gal.
While I am comfortable in front of a group of people, it’s usually because I am talking about fitness (my passion), I am fully dressed (my desire), and I am wearing Nikes (my comfort).
For this competition I will need to wear a bikini (similar to the one below), with the mandatory 5″ high hooker-heels and pose in some of the most awkward-looking positions.
This all makes me very uncomfortable and sick to my stomach when I think about it.
Why Do A Competition?
So why do this, you wonder? Why do something that makes me nauseous every time I think about wearing an itsy-bitsy bikini in front of a large crowd of people?
Why live on chicken breast, protein shakes, broccoli, air and water for 12 weeks? Why workout six days a week, sometimes twice a day?
These are great questions and the best answer I can give you is that I do not want to sit in my rocking chair in my later years and have any regrets.
Regrets that I was too scared, too intimidated, too unmotivated, too lazy and too uncommitted to try.In the end we only regret the chances we didn't take. Click To Tweet
This past week has been helping loving husband feel comfortable with this (cause he’s not too keen about his wife being half-naked in front of a bunch of people), as well as assuring him I will only be a bit of a bitch for the next 3 months.
Let’s face it. I am going to be a little angrier and a bit more impatient than normal until May. While I will try my hardest not to be, truth-be-told I don’t diet well and I love food.I'm sorry for things I said when I was hungry. Click To Tweet
Starting a week ago, and until competition day, I am on one of the strictest eating regimes that I have ever tried.
I have said good bye to my favourite foods and beverages (so long spiced rum, I will miss – but I will never forget you), and eat more meat than I care to.
However, it’s worth it.
It’s worth proving that mid-life is the best time kick some ass. It’s worth showing other women you can do, and can be whatever you want to be – no matter what age you are.
All you need to do is put the work in, have focus and determination, and keep your sense of humour along the way.
Week 13 – Before Photo
Stay tuned… every 2-weeks I will be blogging about my journey to becoming a fitness bikini competitor.